I am into my second year in Florida and getting close to moving into my fourth year alone as a married single person. Time really does move by quickly. At times that scares me and at other times I find it a relief that time goes by so quickly, That is how my whole life seems to have been. A series of contradictions. I hate being alone and I love being alone. I'm married and yet I am single. I don't know how both can exist at the same time but they do.
I can't help but wonder what the future will bring. At times I think I know what I would like my future to look like then in the blink of my eye I'm not so sure. I guess it will be what it will be and I will find a way to embrace it and make the most of it.
As for tonight and this moment I will make my dinner, eat it in front of the TV and well after dinner who knows. I'm not sure what I will find myself doing but I know whatever it is I will do it alone. Today has been a day of being alone. Tomorrow will be with others.